I have decided to begin a journey to find my true authentic self. To provide some background, I have spent most of the last 52 years on a roller coaster of weight gain and loss, feeling inadequate, and fearing my true potential.
In March 2016, I finally decided to go back to school to complete a degree which I came so very close to earning in 1987. Although this time I am working a full-time job that I enjoy and balancing life with all its demands. During this time, I have edged back towards my maximum weight of 280 pounds.
Now to share the impact of the fact I just typed out for the world to see what my weight is…FEAR, EMBARRASSMENT,SELF JUDGEMENT. What I have always denied is my size. I have always seen the face in the mirror and ignored the body I couldn’t look at!
You are now my mirror. I want to share this journey and to be accountable to my friends and family who will read this. I hope you will laugh with me, be a shoulder when I am scared and support my journey along the way. I welcome your feedback.
That being said, I am in the early stages of seeing a bariatric doctor to have the gastric sleeve done. My first appointment is June 27th. I want to share the experience going through the process of surgery and as my body changes, getting to know my own unique self and loving the woman that I am.
Thanks for joining and bon voyage!